1st time pregnancy disappointments

Well as of today I am 19w + 3 days and I find myself crying a lot because i haven’t gotten any pregnancies feels just yet . I don’t feel pregnant at all and most nights wake up crying due to me never feeling the baby move yet nor am I showing. I get worried that something is wrong which only leads to more crying and idk what to do. And to make it worse friends of mine who are also pregnant and are a few weeks behind me babies are kicking and they are hugeee . Idk what to do to take my mind off it and I can’t stop. Crying 🤦🏾‍♀️