What I’ve went through... TW

I’ll try to shoot for short and sweet with this story. REMINDER: TRIGGER WARNING; topics include rape and stalking.

So it all started when I was 13, at a party with my 16 year old cousin (she lived in the country and I’d drive her home from parties), I went to sooo many party’s with her that year and never drank. Her friend found out a couple days before the party that she was pregnant so she wasn’t drinking and offered to drive home. So I drank for the first time. Not a lot, not even a whole cup of jungle juice. A guy was at that party, I later named him Parker. I don’t know his real name. He cornered me in a room full of people, no one noticed. He followed me when I ran upstairs to get away, no one heard me scream. He raped me with the top of a beer bottle and got caught by his friend who said “man you gotta quit doing this”. I thought I was broken then. Over the last 7 years, he’s popped in and out of my life without a trace. He’s always there and always watching me, sometimes months would go by, even a year went by once, but he knew details of my life that happened in the time he wasn’t texting me. He used to send me pictures of myself from a distance when i was at practice or games. He followed me to a concert that was 4 hours from where I live (the party was an hour from where I live). He’s recently come back, texting me pretending to be a guy that I used to talk to, trying to break my fiancé and I up. Texted the guy I used to talk to pretending to be my friend and telling him I still wanted him and stuff that wasn’t true. Here’s what he sent me

I was at my dads the other day and he dropped a note in the door with a log in to his textfree where I could read everything. He used MY usual password for his password and my friends twitter handle as the username. I don’t really know why I’m sharing this or what I’m looking for but thanks for reading if you made it this far. I’m just anxious and terrified and talking about it helps