Advice please xx

Hey everyone.

I’m currently talking to my best friend cousin and I must say I’m catching feelings for him. Ok so I just turn 19 last month and the thing is he is 17😭 is that wrong?? I know age is just a number but sometimes I think about it to hard.

I had a bbl surgery and breast reduction in March I’m still healing I’m seeing him on Sunday before I go to work I have scars on my body which I’m scared for him to see I have a feeling things might get abit sexual but I don’t want to have sex due to the scars I have atm.