I need to vent...

Long post, I just need to vent rant and get this off my chest because I just can't handle it anymore...

Yesterday was my 21 weeks... Also the day my great grandma died. I can't stop crying. We haven't talked in about 2 years because her entire family cut my family off and I can't help but cry.. I'm cramping and I just try to calm down but then I remember I have to now go to the funeral Saturday and pretend nothing is going on because nobody knows I'm pregnant on that side and that's not the time or place to say anything... It upsets me the most about how we found out. My cousin who lives 10 hours away from us found out on Facebook, called her mom, who then called my mom who texted me because I was at work and she didn't want me seeing it on Facebook.. well fast forward to today where I'm still a mess my head's not in the right spot at all I just keep thinking about how things should've been and how now they'll never be.. and I work in a factory so I know I shouldn't be given any special treatment because that's "favoritism" and I don't like playing the pregnancy card. Well I swear I'm having Braxton Hicks for the last two days and I had to spend all day on my feet with the contraction like things every few minutes, the lady I was working with threw a fit when I had a fan on high and it was super super humid at work. So I felt so defeated.. I wanted to give up, I couldn't sit down and work and I really wanted to say something to my supervisor but again I hate pulling the pregnancy card. So I asked my husband on the way home (we work together two days a week) if he could do dinner tonight so I can relax and rest my feet he said "I didn't sign up for that" I'm like fine whatever be an asshole then I'll get to it whenever I feel like it then.

Also back to the working situation there is a girl about 7 weeks ahead of me getting special treatment. She gets a sit down job, easy fucking work, every day no if ands or butts about it. She's had no issues with her pregnancy (we've talked a lot and compared pregnancy so far) and I've had nothing but problems with my pregnancy... And my supervisor knows this... It's just really upsetting that she came up to me one day and said "yeah sure put me over here so I don't have to stand all day. It's really nice to get out of doing everything" like really are you kidding me...