CBT.. help!

So my boyfriend of 4 years has really been wanting to do CBT (cock and ball torture) lately. He’s done it lightly to himself and he’s watched porn videos of it, but I can’t convince myself to do it to him.For me it’s just 100% out of my comfort zone and I can’t force myself to do it and I don’t want to force myself either. How can I still make sure his sexual needs are met if this is super important to him and I’m not able to do it? He feels ashamed about liking it and thinks I won’t do it bc I find it weird, but I don’t. I just can’t make myself okay with causing him pain.