He doesn’t want a relationship

(Ramble alert) So I’ve been with this guy for a little while now. It’s been pretty great honestly, we’re really good friends and hang out like every week outside of school and we’ve kissed a couple times too. I’ve liked him for about 6 months now, and we’ve been a “thing” for about 1 month now, but no one else knows about it. Only my closest friends know about it because I tell them everything but the guy doesn’t know they know (or at least I’m guessing he doesn’t) and I don’t think he’s told anyone. So I like where we’re at but when I’m at school with him and we’re with his friends or my friends I just feel awkward like I can’t talk to him. I think he wants to keep our thing a secret and I’m totally fine with that because I get uncomfortable when that stuff is public anyways, I don’t like people to stare if we’d be like holding hands or something. So I like being just friends with him at school but I don’t know how to act with it so we barely even talk at school. But then when I come to his house everything is great! But I started to wonder if what we were doing was actually going somewhere, because I didn’t want to be with a guy who just wanted a casual relationship or friends with benefits or something like that. So I asked him how he felt about all this and basically he said he likes me, but he doesn’t want to be in a relationship right now or for a while for that matter because his past experience with dating people was stressful and the girls really messed him up :( so I understood it, and I agreed that we didn’t need to be in a relationship. We’re sophomores in high school anyways, so it’s not like we need to be dating yet. I’ve always been a firm believer of high school relationships never lasting for very long, so dating him could just be a setup for failure. But unfortunately I’ve gained a helpless romantic side to me and so I also think that maybe it would be different with this guy, but I wanted to respect his wishes of not dating anyone. So I guess I’m half half about how I feel with our situation now, part of me is fine with keeping a secret thing because I know he’s not a f*ckboy and actually cares about me because we’ve been friends for a while, but it also just sucks knowing that it could potentially never go anywhere further. I don’t want to wait that long for something that may never happen, but I also don’t want to give up what we already have. Does any of this make sense?