Joy in the journey my ass

I have to post somewhere because no one really knows that we are going through this journey and my husband will just say his signature “oh well” if I tell him. We’ve been trying to conceive for 4.5 years now. There’s a backstory to what meds I’m taking to help but I won’t get into that because it doesn’t matter. I just need to vent my feelings here. I took a pregnancy test this morning after a small glimmer of hope that I may be pregnant. I’m two weeks overdue and am showing symptoms of early pregnancy which are so similar to period symptoms (so thanks God for that confusion). Anyway the test can back negative and still no period either and I’m just ready to stop trying and get a hysterectomy. I’m done with this roller coaster.