Regretting abortion

Found out i was pregnant in march and i told my boyfriend but he said he wasnt ready and he rather us live together before we have a baby (we both still stay with our parents) also our jobs arent too great. I know we wasnt it a good postion to bring in a baby but i still felt like we could do it. We couldve worked hard, changed things and got everything together by the time the baby came. But he already had abortion in his mind. But i was still going to keep it cause it was my choice. After a while it got to me like maybe im not ready, we should wait, we are not stable, and he doesnt want one at the moment. I ended up going through with it and i didnt want to but i did it. The nurse even showed me a ultrasound. I couldnt stop crying that whole day even 2 weeks later i still cry when i talk about it. But the first week i would just randomly cry out of nowhere. I just wish i could rewind time