Happy Mother’s Day!

Last year, September 22nd. I had found out I was pregnant with my first child. I didn’t know what to do or what to think, but the second I found out...I loved that baby more than life itself. October 1st came, and that baby had passed away. I felt like my world had literally came crashing down. I did not know my little one for a long time at all...but that child was my everything. A loss is a loss no matter how small.

I prayed and prayed, for my baby to come back to me. Crying every night. Asking god to please just give him back to me. Asking god to show me a sign that it would happen again. Taking pregnancy tests..nearly every other day.🙄(waste of money) 😬🤷🏻‍♀️. I started getting frustrated because I was more than impatient. So I gave up on caring so much. I was angry. I was broken.

At the end of December, I was riding in the car with my family and I notice a rainbow. I instantly got this feeling in my stomach that I was meant to see that for myself. The day after that on my lunch break at work...another rainbow.

Five days after...ANOTHER ONE. This is the sign I had prayed for god to give me. I finally felt this sense of relief and happiness.

The day after New Years...I found out I was pregnant again! 💙

This pregnancy has sure been a tough one for the past 5 months. I’ve gone through a lot. Everything has its ups and downs. But I’m more than blessed that I am carrying my son again. I love him more than anything. He has completely opened my eyes up to so many things and I can’t be more grateful. He’s the healthiest baby boy ever. He’s my best friend.

I can’t wait till September to finally be able to hold him in my arms and love, protect and cherish him for forever.