i lost two of my dogs and idk how to cope with it

i lost two of my dogs thursday they were my best friends the animal control killed them because they killed another dog anyways they fought over a female dog they ran out the door when i opened it and it was my fault the hole thing to much to explain. anyways the officer said that if i didnt i would have hellve fines and possibly in jail... i feel so bad watching them go in the truck to leave to be put down i cryed and cryed and im still upset about ut tbey were never mean dogs at all it was a mistake and the owner of the other dog isnt mad at all its the hispanics fault they let tbere female loose in heat and thats ilegal they made our dogs die because of there dog.. i miss my dogs so much man... today they went to be cremated i will get them next monday.. anyways ppl said they done something illegal because inws suppose go for the judge first before they put them down and i ddint... they put them down the same night they came and took them away from me im hurt and lost... :( they were my babies... :/ the owner of the other dog also said the female already had 4 sets of puppies and i think it was my dogs babies and they didnt tel us shit... the female always come in our yard and roam around.. im honestly dont know how to cope after loosin them they were only 1 and half and 2 and half years old :( im hurt badly