#ankylosing spondylitis #3miscarriages and 4 years of ttc

1) Got married at 2nd may 2015 had first period after marriage next cycle I conceived and due to stress my Ankylosing spondylitisgot triggerd I weighed 55 kg than. My in laws didn't wanted us to stay with them, cause I was not good enough for them. so we shifted in rented apartment. In that shifting period I miscarried at 6th week. My condition arthritis worsen after this. Took steroids in allophaty treatment.

2) Second conception 2nd July 2017 Lmp. Everything was fine, baby was doing well completed 12 weeks mark took routine test i weighed 62kgs. Got diagnosed with diabetes and hypo thyroid, thanks to the steroids I took it gave me these two conditions. Miscarriaged at 14th week, DnC it took toll on my body because baby got decayed inside. Skin infection, open pores, major hair loss and weight gained I was 69 now. Whole year in pain my condition of arthritis got severely triggered.

3) third conception Lmp 30th Aug 2018, before that lost 9 kgs of weight came back to 60 also controlled diabetes, checked thyroid everything was going well. Took test immediately after missed period, came out positive, was not expecting what happened next. Coz of bleeding in 5 week took sonogram found out I have twins was on the moon. Got hospitalized took progesterone shots, was bed ridden this only worsen my arthritis condition now my left hip wasn't allowing me to move. My mobility was severely affected. Next sonogram I got another news there are three sacs but no fetal pole. My world shattered. Was on bed rest for 1 month result arthritis was slowly gradually affecting other bones aswell. Doctor suggested termination. The night when I started bleeding, will never think such pain even for enemy. Pain was intolerable.

4) current status: taking homeopathy treatment for Ankylosing spondylitis, aurvedic medication for fertility. Arthritis is slow death... it comes to you daily... slowly gradually... all u can do is fight... I'm trying my level best.. with AS, thyroid, low hb and thyroid... all this new addition are cause of stress. Stress which I came across after getting married to someone who is better looking person then me( here in India look matters alot). which surely is a great issue with my in laws. The hatred they showed me in intial days of my marriage is still haunting me.Every year one more addition of some condition making it harder to me. All I have is a loving husband by my side, my parents and siblings.

Sorry for such lengthy post,but this acted as a vent for me...