Possible Abortion

**DISCLAIMER**
I don't care if you're against abortion. You have no right to shame me or call me names. I don't care if you think I'm a horrible person. I probably think you're a horrible person for trying to make me feel like I'm doing something wrong. We are supposed to help each other. Not tear each other down. Honestly when I see those things it just makes me want to get an abortion even more. I'm looking for honest opinions or life stories that can help my decision. If you're against abortion but can lend me nice ADULT advice that won't make me feel like you're hating, please do. 
ANYWAY...
I'm having a really hard time deciding whether I should have an abortion or not. I had one last year and I swore I would never do it again. I just know my boyfriend and I are not ready for a child yet. We can do so much better financially in a few years than we can right now. But I really don't want to go through all that again. I barely recovered from my last. I'm just so torn. I'm only 6 weeks so I have a little time. Any thoughts or words of encouragement?