So here’s the thing.

There’s this guy I’ve been really into. Like REALLY into. I’ve known him for about 8 months or so. Very attractive, very funny, VERY intelligent but still kinda ditzy. same religion, our families run in moderately similar circles, etc. He’s very cute and I really like him. I was tutoring him in a couple classes this past year and he kept coming back even though he never really needed my help after the third week of the first class. He said it was because he wanted to make sure I kept getting paid.

Anyway, he just graduated (college) today. I’m still a sophomore so I was basically watching him (and my friends, who I was there for) just take off. I talked to him both before and after the ceremony, wished him congratulations, and all that jazz. Realized I should’ve asked him if he wanted to hang out or at least if I’d still see him around campus or something but lost track of him in the crowd. Went to hang out with my friends and thought something along the lines of “if I’m meant to see him again, I’m sure I will” immediately before he walked in front of me. I kinda followed him from a few feet back and then turned around and chickened our again. Had the same talk with myself two more times with the same results.

It’s been 12 hours and I don’t think I’ve thought about anything else. I REALLY wish I’d done something about it but I just...OOF.