Finally over gender disappointment!

I’m 28 weeks and 5 days and today was the day I finally got over my gender disappointment. Today was the day I finally felt myself bonding with my child. Today was the day I could say his name with love and not sadness.

Yes. I wanted a girl. I really wanted another little missy. Life had other ideas and sent me a little mister. For weeks I felt sad. Feeing like the days of girly things were over, and would be taken over by cars and dinosaurs.

Most of all, I felt sad at myself. I was angry at myself. Why was I so down? Why couldn’t I bond with my child, just cause he was a boy? I felt that something was wrong with me.

I sat down today, struggling with my GD, realising something. If I didn’t care about him, if I honestly didn’t love him, if I didn’t have a bond, then I wouldn’t have been sat crying over this condition. I wouldn’t have been worrying about him. I wouldn’t be making decisions to help me control the GD.

That’s when it hit me. There was never a moment where I didn’t love him. There was never a moment where I didn’t bond with him. It was all in my head. Gender disappointment is a very real feeling. And too many mothers are made to feel bad for it.

pregnancy is hard. Emotions run riot, one minute you’re up the next you’re at rock bottom. Mentally and emotionally exhausting. But its all worth it in the end when you finally see past the fog and get to what truly is real.

I can’t wait to meet my SON. To hold HIM in my arms. I have been incredibly blessed to have been able to carry children, and even more so blessed to have both a girl and a boy. ❤️