Since we started following God...

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The same year we receive Jesus in our lifes I have a miscarriage, I was very upset and stopped going to church, Still beleive in his promise, just dont like chuch dynamic. January 2015 I found out Im pregnant again! In the very same week I lost it. I went to different doctors and everything looks goid with me.
I recently found Im pregnant again and due to recent miscarriages my Dr decided to keep an eye on me, in my firts Ultrasound they didnt find any fetal pole inside, just an empty sac, so im waiting for the worse.
Is anyone has the life upside down since you turn to Jesus? Im a beleiver and i will never come back to my other life, but why God allows this? Why?