Extreme hypothyroidism 😳

I need to vent because at this point I’m at a loss of what to do. My husband (26) and I (21) have been trying for a baby for a year and a half and we’ve gone through all of the tests. The issue is my thyroid. I was on 25 mcg of Levothyroxine. My dr wanted me to stop taking it cold turkey. She wasn’t convinced I needed it. Stupidly I listened because who am I to question the dr. I sure as heck don’t have a medical degree! She did bloodwork this past Friday. At that point I’d been off of the med for 1 week and when my bloodwork came back she said my tsh is 43. The highest it should be is 5. My t3 and t4 are .33 which is low. She’s starting me on 125mcg of Levothyroxine. Since Saturday my body has been exhausted. I can’t think, can’t remember, my reaction times are awful. Yesterday was the worst of it all. I had to leave work early and sleep in my car in the parking lot.

This morning after 10 hours of sleep, I’m even more exhausted. I’m having bad stomach cramps and stomach aches. My body doesn’t want to function. I called the dr to see if this is normal because I’ve had a diagnosis of hypothyroidism since Age 12 and have NEVER felt this bad. I made the mistake of saying that I was feeling withdrawals from the med and I asked if it was possible to have a note excusing me from work. Well the dr made sure to correct me and say that I’m not feeling withdrawals I’m just feeling extreme fatigue from not being on the med and what I’m feeling can’t be symptoms of withdrawal. That made no sense to me...but she also said that this is not a reason to be excused from work.

Now I’m here at home, missing work, feeling exhausted and stupid..