Hi there. My boyfriend manipulated me into caving into his demands of me getting an abortion. The procedure happened this year on Jan 5th, I was 11 weeks measuring 10+2, and I did get an ultrasound photo. He said the most vile things to me about if I were to keep the pregnancy. I made the worst decision of my life by caving in, I am stronger than that but was not at the time. I’ve been against abortion my whole life but I still caved into him. It’s a REALLY long story and ordeal to go along with that- so I’ll save that story for another time. Here’s the sitch:

I am pregnant again. My birth control failed me again (even after switching to a higher dose pill).

I have and always have had a mountain ranges worth of support from SO many family members, a countless amount of support from them. I am keeping the baby no matter what my boyfriend says. There’s no way in hell I’m going to go through that again. My body my choice dude. I didn’t want to do it the first time, what makes you think I’ll do it again. He’s going to say the same mean things to me he did the first time around though..

So my question is.... how do you ladies do it?? I mean, part of me is scared. For many reasons.

I have started to go back to college for my career (only my first quarter in, so literally JUST starting out). I mean, did you stop going to school and just quit? Or did you keep going? I know anything is possible, I always strive for greatness. I’m totally okay with going to school and being pregnant/raising a child. I’m MORE than okay with it. I have 6 years of paid childcare experience as a nanny. What happened with your living situation? Did you and baby go to live with a family member or on your own away from dad (for whatever the reason may be)?

At the time, he manipulated me into convincing me that abortion was the best option, and “I did agree with him in the end”. He says he’d rather have his future together and then the kid, and I totally get that, I’d love the same thing but I’m not going to get another abortion, not going to adopt out (my grandma did that with her first child and it’s a no no from me). If I’m pregnant, then I want that baby- end of story. So how on earth do you do it?! 😩 Thanks mamas ❤️

Also, we’re both going to be 21 this year, both have minimum wage jobs, I’m starting my first job into my career field in one month (CNA) but the pay is still minimum wage, but of course yearly raises, lots of overtime opportunities, full benefits, retirement etc. So, things on my end future wise are looking up. I can do it. But how?!