Does anyone else here have relationship issues with their own mothers? Mine was emotionally and verbally abusive as well as several attempted physically abusive situations. She punched me when I was 17 (I had her arrested, she was too drunk to leave a mark) and before then, she'd chase me with a whip (also drunk, so I outran her pretty quickly). She got me hooked on vicodin and xanax and pushed them on me, then cut me off. I've been clean since last January, which feels amazing. While I was in grades 6 and on, she would get drunk and mix pills, and she would be so fucked up that I had to put her to bed. Almost every night. My dad worked a lot to keep away from her and to make ends meet.

I cut her out of my life last June, but I let her back in around Christmastime. She accused me of stealing $300 from their house an hour away from me, and there was no reason to point the finger at me. I was LIVID. I went off on her. She didn't talk to me about it, she went behind my back and told OTHER PEOPLE that I was guilty of it! That's the only reason I found out! Then when I confronted her, she lied through her teeth about it. That's what really set me off. Ugh. The only reason I haven't blocked her number again is because I'd like to be able to share some of her horrible words with my therapist and my brother (who has also cut her out). My mom has untreated mental health stuff and denies her alcoholism and addiction to vicodin. I realize there isn't room for me in her mind because of the addictions on board, but I'm so tired of it. I've turned my life around. She never will. It breaks my heart because my dad is super codependent and won't leave her even though he said he's been "alone" all his life and doesn't think real love exists.

Sorry, this was long. But thanks for reading if you got this far. I just want to know I'm not the only one. Taking applications for the mom position... requirements include not being my biological mommy dearest.