I don’t really know how to feel about everything... I almost feel relieved about it... but then I think about this baby that was growing in me for as long as it was and I hadn’t even found out until I was 14 weeks.. and I had to decide so quickly and I just... I don’t know what to feel or how to describe what I’m dealing with but I hate myself for making the decision now and I miss it.... and I don’t know what to do...