I dont know what to do...

So I have a friend and we were pregnant at the same time I was just one month ahead of her.. sadly she lost her baby at 5 1/2 months.. it’s was the saddest thing. I grieved with her, too the point where I didn’t feel my baby move for awhile it was scary. Anyways my daughter now is almost 5 months and my friend is her god mother but she rarely sees her. She always had some sort of excuse. Now she has made me feel like being a mother is a burden and that my baby being alive is terrible. She says she can’t hangout with me because I’m a mom and that her seeing pictures of my daughter make her more mentally not okay.. which I get losing a baby isn’t easy... I lost two when I was in high school so I understand but I feel like being a mom isn’t okay and she is supposed to be my best friend and the godmother of my baby girl.. I just don’t know what to do anymore.. sorry I had to vent because my husband is deployed right now and I have no one to talk to and I have to pack all alone because we just bought our first house I’m just super upset and stressed and I feel like I can just vent for ever on this app...