Advice for 19 weeks 5 days

I’m 19 weeks and 5 days and the father and I currently are not together and I don’t see myself forgiving him which hurts. When we first met he had a steady job we would go on dates and stuff or go out together. We moved in together in November he was laid off so I took care of everything. I got pregnant and he still didn’t wanna get a job regardless if it was something part time at a ware house. He worked 1 week in a warehouse night shift and claimed he couldn’t do it and quit. He’s a carpenter and he still has not found a steady job to provide it even to go out to the movies. He can go buy beer and weed and go out with his friends all the time but can’t even take me out ever. So I just got sick of it I got tired of working and providing like I was alone and I got tired of how mean and ignorant he talked to I just stopped talking to him for days. I don’t like sleeping in our bed because that room just makes be depressed so I want to stay on the couch. Last night I was on the couch and he argued with me to go to the bed but I I didn’t want to so I went on the floor because the bed hurts my back so he picked me up by my legs and I was upside down to put me in the bed. Then after he did that I went in bed with my 5 year old and he just left for the night and still didn’t come home. Ladies am I wrong for feeling the way I feel towards him I’m at the point where I can’t forgive him anymore.