Sorry this is probably stupid. I was lying in bed reading and I feel utterly worthless and like no one apart from my family likes me. I have quite a few physical differences from the stereotype. For a start I'm 1/2 Vietnamese and 1/2 British. I have a double earlobe and huge bags under my eyes that never go away. I have hypo-mineralised teeth and another weird thing with them. My left hip is inward rotated so my knees are pointed in and my hips hurt a lot and I'm pigeon toed. So yeah. And an incident at school came back to haunt me. I was sitting with my friends and one was peeling a banana. She was having trouble doing it so I tried doing the Vietnamese way. One of my friends was like ' who does it that way'. And I was like 'me my dad and Vietnamese people'. Then she said ' oh shut up about being Vietnamese, everyone's sick of it'. I had barely mentioned it and I nearly cried. I felt really hurt cause I'd counted her as a good friend and she had literally just said something she should have known would make me feel awful cause she's not British. So now I just feel like dirt and I have to sit next to her in Citizenship and she ignores me and talks to the people behind us. One of them is one of my best friend and the other is a nice girl who I quite like (not like like but as a friend) but when I try to speak to them or them to me she says 'shut up evie no one cares' so I feel terrible now. I don't hate her but I feel really worthless every Citizenship lesson. Is this bullying? So besides me feeling physically different and anyway worthless I have this girl telling me that explicitly every week. And she hangs out with my friends as well so I have the choice of hanging out with my friends and her telling me I'm worthless, but my friends not noticing or reading in the library so I'm really lonely. Sorry this is really stupid I shouldn't have posted it.

Here are some pics of me :

And here's a pic of my double earlobe: