After carrying him for 18 weeks, I got to experience the joy of natural childbirth without the happiness that comes along with it. We lost our baby Finnegan at 18 weeks exactly. I'm in shock, I dont know how to feel, my body aches, my heart hurts, I just want to hold my little boy. This was loss number 4. I'm not sure I can keep doing this...and to add insult to injury, my milk has come in. Can anyone tell me how to stop the milk production? I feel like it's just making the loss that much harder to cope with this time.