Cancer

This year has been truly awful as far as health goes in my family. My father in law got diagnosed with a reoccurence of colon cancer about the time i got pregnant back in February. He is almost done with chemo and should be ok when all is said and done. About the same time my dad got diagnosed with a rare and aggressive form of kidney cancer. I'm really struggling. His fight is not going well and there is no cure for his type of cancer...only a prolonging of the inevitable. Last night my mom called to tell me they think he has a new tumor in his aorta or it could be a blood clot (either possibilty is bad). I'm just not ready to say goodbye to my dad. I love him and we've always been pretty close. I'm getting scared now that this might go faster than any of us thought. And I'm freaking out a little bit. I'm in ks and he's in atlanta. What if something happens and he passes away before i have the baby in November? I really want him to meet his granddaughter. He's wanted to be a grandpa for so long. And it makes me so sad that my kids will never really know their grandpa. And im scared I'll miss the funeral if things go poorly to close to my due date. I think that would really kill me too. I'm just heartbroken and not sure how to handle this at times. And to top everything off about a month ago my mother in law had a heart attack and nearly died. She's doing better now. But it's a long road. I'm just emotionally spent. And my husband has been so supportive, but i know he's got to be as emotionally spent as i am too. It's just a lot.