I have definitely taken a downward spiral the last few days. I could understand why at first and just pushed it off as my third trimester hormones. Then as time had gone on it has gotten worse. I’m starting to realize that one of the biggest problems I having right now

Is a lot of guilt. I have a miscarriage back in January 2018. I currently have two boys and when I had my miscarriage I was carrying a girl. Now that I’m pregnant again it will be my third boy. Which I am very excited about. I am not disappointed that I’m having another boy at all. But I’m having a lot of pain right now in the fact that I was pregnant with a girl and I miscarriaged. I really hurts my heart and I find myself often crying because of it. That may have been my only chance to have a little girl and I couldn’t. I’m just having a hard time right now.