Failed..

Failed my stupid 1 hour test. This is my 3rd pregnancy and I've never failed one before. I want to cry because I already have to deal with being high risk for being 35 and having pre-eclampsia with my other two and high BP during pregnancy with them all so far. I also have had hyperemesis gravidarum for all three. I just feel so defeated.

I go back Monday for the 3 hour test. I failed with a 165. I'm hoping it's somehow due to me being stressed this week and my 21 month old was up every hour last night till 530am. Then I went at 730 for the test. I can hope right? To make it worse somehow my husband took me telling him I failed it and said "well you eat sugary stuff! You love cookies!" So ok make me feel like it's my fault more. I haven't slept. I'm worried even more now. Bow I'm upset he acted that way. I know he sucks when it comes to overeating but come on.

I need a nap.