Please help.. driving myself to insanity..

Angela

Hey everyone this is my boyfriend and I.. well we’ve been going for about 6 months but we met each other two years ago. Well two years ago we were dating but due to mental issues he left me without a response. He eventually came back last year around November but in the time I was in a very deep depression due to a breakup. Well we start dating yes everything is good until he starts looking at other woman now to me I’m not really big on that until it’s really obvious and in my face it made me upset and I talked to him. Well he admitted it and from that point on the controlling happened.. he would grab my phone and just constantly check. EVERYTHING my privacy and everything ( I didn’t mind because I thought it was normal?) well he took off all the guys on my social media and he made me cut ties with my guy friends which was kind of upsetting .. it got worse. I was on a trip to New Orleans and we got in a fight over him saying “ you better not be staring at other guys “ and constantly kept bashing me about it and kept calling me when I was on a family trip ( graduation trip ) ALSO on graduation my ex texted me congratulating me and I just said thanks and shoved it off and he got SOOO mad like he literally didn’t take me to my family comida (dinner) that night because he was mad .. good thing his grandparents told him something. His passiveness and the controlness has gotten worse from this point on like every time I try to post a picture of myself he deletes it .. or when I try to send him pics saying “ does this look good “ when I’m going out with family he tells me why do I dress up like that out in public and makes me feel ugly .. I don’t know what to do anymore he also gets mad every time I try to talk to him.. it’s driving me insane and I just wanna suicide so he can listen .. I don’t know what to do help me please .. he’s also at my house right now because we just fought and I blocked him on everything now he wants to talk please help me !