Bipolar & struggling

19 days postpartum with my first & I’m still feeling completely overwhelmed by this lifestyle change. I find myself constantly wishing I was still pregnant & occasionally wishing I could go back to before I was ever pregnant. I’m so exhausted & overtaken by the fact that I’ll always be a mom & always have another life to care for. I’m on medication & I know without it I would definitely be in a way worse place but does it ever get any easier or at least more worth it?