I think about it everyday. I don't cry like I used to the first month like I used to but I can't really talk about it without tearing up....I Can't forgive myself, I feel like such a coward. I been looking forward to motherhood as long as I remember. I feel like the only reason I did it bc my partner didn't want it. I feel like such a peice of shit and dont think I can ever forgive myself.

What if I can't ever get pregnant again? Or if I do somethings wrong? What if I have a miscarriage? I feel like at 31 God gave me the biggest blessing I could ever ask for and I literally thru it away 😥