Struggling💔

I am feeling so defeated right now 😕...

since we lost our son back in November we have been trying and every month I keep getting my period. I’ve even tried to “stop trying and forget about tracking” ( which is near impossible to do when all you want is your little baby) and now I’m just sitting here scrolling on Facebook and seeing people posting that they are expecting their babies for December etc and I just feel broken. Like so unbelievably broken. It took us 10 months to get pregnant the first time and then We lost our beautiful boy at 20 weeks.... and now we are going on almost 6 months and at one point I was even 2 weeks late and turned out I just postponed my period because of stress so I’ve stopped Being stressed and tried calming down and exercising and eating right. I just feel like it’s never gonna happen. And I understand people try for years and I get that. But it just feels unfair. I just wish we had a baby here. He should be almost 3 months 😢 I’m so frustrated.

I needed to rant. I’ve been crying and I just don’t know what to do. 😪 why does life have to be so unfair. Feel like I’m never going to get my rainbow. 🙁💔