So I’m confused on my sexuality can someone please help me (and pls don’t comment “you are whatever u wanna be” cause that makes me even more confused) It’s kinda graphic btw so be warned?

Ok so I made out with my ex bestfriend when I was 9/10 and wanted to go further than that with her. Then after awhile she stopped being friends and I missed kissing her...I check girls out...I watch lesbian porn and jerk off to it...when I think about lesbian porn I get horny. I do not like boyxboy porn or girlxboy porn that much iv only liked dudes for there personality when iv has crushes on dudes iv never wanted them to f*ck me or vice versa. Tbh d**k inside of me doesn’t sound fun licking p****y sounds like more fun than d**k. Uh when one of my friends gets a boyfriend I tell myself that if I were with them instead they wouldn’t get hurt and that I would treat them better. Erotic lesbian stories make me wet but erotic straight stories don’t....um that’s all I can think of right now.