I think I got the wrong midwife... Long post.

Last time she had an appointment was at 31 weeks but she didn't show because her daughters child got sick. Understandable.

Then my baby decided to turn breech at 35 weeks, I texted her to ask for tips on what I could do besides the spinning babies. Just some tips from someone experienced. I do my research but I also like to get an opinion from a professional. She just told me we wait what the doctors in hospital say then she will see what to do. I go to hospital and update her. Luckily for me baby had turned head down at 37 weeks. So I ask her about acupuncture she offers towards the end for birth preparation. She says she can do it. So I don't book one at hospital. Tells me she will make an appointment with me after I leave hospital the next day. I leave n update her. All well, no word is said about an appointment. After a few days I remind her she wanted to give me an appointment for the acupuncture and went ahead to suggest to her Thursday 20th but told her she can suggest another day that suits her calender. She says Thursday is fine. So I write a message telling her we meet Thursday 20th.june at 5pm like she suggested just so we both have it on record. I have had her come 2 hours late to an appointment before and she told me she wrote a different time and I did push it. Mistakes happen. So Thursday 13th she texts me because she bounced. She thought it was the day we are meeting. That she got confused. happens! I tell her am sorry and still asked if she is still fine with 20th. Well today she texts me and tells me she thought I gave birth. And am thinking what the hell? OK I understand that she forgot my due date before but here I am trying to make an appointment for birth preparation and she is wants to come home to help me with new born n after birth checks. Now this is a midwife I got that comes home. The hospital I give birth in will have their midwifes to deliver me but this midwife is supposed to help me with everything else that my gyn and the hospital are not in charge of. But she is just too confused. I now feel like I might give birth and she might not even come home. I have all my things organised as am a very neat person but I feel it would be nice if I had a sense of security where I can rely on her. Sometimes I think she just takes me for granted because am kind and soft spoken. But I try to remain professional. She has never showed on time for any appointments I made. At the beginning she turned up at least just to check on me n talk. But now towards the end where I actually need more of her help nd tips, something always comes up.

I think I chose the wrong midwife. Surely for my next child am going to first contact the midwife that I had for my child birth classes at the hospital.

Should I wait till Thursday to see if she turns up or should I try to get the hospital midwife to do the acupuncture? Of course at home it would be more comfortable and I would not have to drive to hospital but am concerned this lady is going to let me down badly. Am 38 weeks now! Luckily when I give birth and she doesn't show, I still will have my mom to help me but the medical checkups in regard of how baby is developing or how am healing is my midwifes job but gash. I wonder why she can't for once just keep her word and be reliable. Am a FTM and it comes with its insecurities towards the end but now I also have to think about what if she doesn't come through. Here hospitals leave u in the hands of a midwife so if she doesn't do her part, I will have less medical care after birth.