He’s scared to have sex?

So my man and I have been together for almost 3 years. In March I got my mirana iud out and before I did this we had the conversation about other bc methods I really did not want to be on any other bc as I’ve been on it since I was 14 I haven’t really known my cycle it’s been so sporadic and there is possibilities of pcos as it runs in my family. and so I just wanted to get off of it and let my body regulate and I wanted to learn what’s normal and what’s not for me as we do want kids in the next couple years (after the wedding)

So he agreed with me and we both decided we will just use condoms. So that appt was at the end of March we went and got it taken out. Since that appointment we have had sex twice....

it’s driving me nuts. We have had issues before I got it taken out where we go weeks at a time without sex because he would say he’s not in the mood, yet I’d catch him masturbating. I’ve tried to Initiate it and I just get rejected. There has been times where I tell him he doesn’t have to do anything and I will give him a bj in hopes that will lead to sex but it never does. He doesn’t ever play with me. I have tried talking to him several times about this to the point he gets irritated and he told me it’s annoying I bring it up so much. And I told him it’s because I know there’s an issue and I want to get to the bottom of it I hate how he doesn’t think it’s an issue. Now it’s not weeks it’s months without out it.

We had a disagreement about it about two weeks ago I told him I want to know the reason he doesn’t want to I’ve asked him several times before if it was because it’s boring, too much work, if he’s not attracted to me anymore. (The reason I asked if it’s too much work is because I’m a very large girl and only two positions really work for me) but he declines it all and he finally told me it’s because he’s scared of the condom breaking and getting me pregnant.. he went on to say how we’re not on the place for a baby and all this other stuff which I agree but still that doesn’t mean we can’t have sex. So I can see that as a valid point but I don’t think it’s valid enough to hold out on sex for months and if it was the case why doesn’t he want to play around together he always hides it from me and and just masturbates. Since he told me this I’ve completely stopped trying to initiate things and have stopped touching him the way I used to when I’d try to start things. It’s been about a 2 weeks I don’t think he’s really noticed or got the hint. It’s literally breaking me I feel like something is wrong with me why am I not good enough I feel so alone in our relationship I don’t know what to do or how to fix the issue because every time we talk about it doesn’t do anything & he doesn’t try to fix the issue.

Sorry fo the long post but if anyone has suggestions on what I could do let me know!