Having some serious self esteem issues 😔 my BF hasn't hardly touched me in weeks.

So, today I was cleaning our room up a bit and found a porn dvd left out by my BF. Which! Is whatever really, we both watch porn and are usually very open about it. But I had LEEP done (4 weeks ago on Friday) and will unfortunately be having another done on Friday. So we haven't had sex obviously, and now won't be able to have sex for at least an added 4 weeks. Which also isn't a huge deal, but I'm definitely becoming extremely sexually frustrated 😬😪. I've been giving him blow jobs pretty frequently, and he's woke me up for them when he wanted it, just to make sure I'm keeping him satisfied during this period.. But y'all, he's only touched my vagina once in the last 3 week's 😭 and it was for like 4 seconds in his sleep! He hasn't hardly groped me or,felt me up, we don't have short heated make out sessions and he hasn't felt like leaving hickies on me.. I tries to tell him how i felt the other day, but now I feel like it actually doesn't matter. Like, there's other ways he could please me, but i feel like he doesn't WANT to ya know? It's made me feel very unsexy, and has seriously taken a tole on my self-esteem 😞

This is more a rant than anything. So if you read this I appreciate it lol.