Seriously though???

So things have been rocky with my s/o I'm guessing because of the new baby and bills since I work less to offset day care expenses, and you know, raise my child. Anyway tonight we got on the topic of the government theoretically coming to people's houses to take their guns. And he said that he would let her (our daughter) get killed in the crossfire for the whole principle of people keeping their guns. Also his 50 year old brother lives with us, which is super fun. I commented that I didn't realize he'd be living with us forever. I figured he'd eventually get his own place at some point. So he tells me 'must be nice having your family living in the same state. I wouldn't be living here if I hadn't knocked you up.'

Like wow. Okay.

So I asked him if even wanted me around, especially since I have been feeling like that for a while now. He then says that my question wasn't relevant to his statement and went off to bed.

So I'm sitting here getting my child to sleep wondering how the hell those two statements aren't related?

I don't know if I'm just being crazy or what, but im really thinking that it may be time for me and my daughter to leave. It really breaks my heart but I don't think his resentment towards me will ever change. I'm also tired of being made to feel like the small amount of money I make to buy food, diapers, wipes, etc baby items, household items, and internet(that also allows his brother to go to school), doesn't make any difference just because he pays rent and the standard bills. But then he can also just drop a few hundred on guns every couple months. While I barely spend anything on myself aside from occasional coffees and groceries. All my beauty products come from rewards I make by buying the other necessities I purchase.

I'm also just overwhelmed by the thought of moving. I don't make enough to pay rent and cover all the above child items. Let alone bills. I'm sure I could stay with my mom but I don't know how long she'd be okay with that.

I think that's all I really have to say, I just needed to vent. Not necessarily asking for advice but am open to it. Thanks ladies ❤