I had a dream that my late fiancé knocked on the door. He was alive as could be. His ears were pink instead of purple. He said he dug his way out. Made his way to me first before his family knew. That he wasn’t dead. He showed me the autopsy scar. He seemed confused. Then my son woke me up.😭 I know it was just a dream, but it was so real. I really wanted more time with him.😭

I know he didn’t want to leave my son and I like that. But I have been angry that we were left without anything on top of losing him. Maybe that dream was his way of telling me he didn’t understand why everything happened the way it did. I know it’s not his fault. God, I miss him so much. 😭💔