I really need advice trigger warning

Just found out yesterday I’m pregnant with baby #3. I’m having mixed emotions. My boyfriend wants me to abort it but I don’t think I can go through with that. But Just the thought of having 3 kids is scary to me. It feels like my life will no longer be for me. At first I wanted to abort as well because we’re not mentally or financially ready for a third. I just need advice please. I need some positivity right now no rude comments please be understanding because I keep crying and crying.