Two failed relationships.... finally happiness begins

In June of 2017 I got into a relationship with a guy from school. It was perfect in the beginning but once I was diagnosed with epilepsy and was given medication that made me moody all the time that’s when it all went down. We started to fight consistently over the smallest things and although we always pushed it off for the being of our relationship. By month 8 I was a reck on the inside but I wasn’t done trying to keep the spark up. He bought me a promise ring in February of 2018 as a promise of his “love” but only to find out that he felt force to buy one because of my reactions to my friends promise rings. The fighting continued and when we hit the one year mark I felt suffocated. I felt unhappy. I try to tell him but he didn’t want to hear me out. In July of 2018 we broke up and got back together 2 weeks later...however that only last a week because we ended up breaking up again.... him and I remained friends till October 2018 however those 3 months weren’t the greatest. We would argue more and more as if we were still dating. The day that he laid his hands on me was the day that I left his life for good.

That same October of 2018 I began talking to my best friend at the time in a more flirty way. However by January I felt like it wasn’t going to work out because I wanted to expand more into adulthood and he just wasn’t up for that. We broke up right at the start of the new year.

In January of 2019 I started a new job. Freshly single I wasn’t ready to start dating again. But that didn’t stop me from looking. I kept staring at my coworker but didn’t have the courage to do anything. I was afraid of 1. Getting hurt and 2. Rushing into something too fast. My coworker ended up being away for about 2 weeks because he had fallen sick. I was worried and I didn’t know why. When he came back things were different. It felt like the ice had broken but not enough. After my birthday in March that’s when it really got moving. I got a new look for my birthday as a way of representing a new start... and he noticed right away. We began flirting consistently but It felt like that weren’t so sure if we liked each other although it was obvious. At the start of April I finally felt ready and I made my move if he wasn’t going to do so. It’s been 3 months since.... and well we’ve been dating since. A lot has happen like we travelled out of the country together. Moved in together... and we are hoping to plan a wedding about a year from now. I know it’s all so quickly but I can’t seem to let him go. It’s like something was telling me that he was the one all along and he is the one.... my parents even think so which is odd because they didn’t think that of the other two. But this is the guy I’m going to marry one day. He’s brought me happiness in my darkest days. He believed in me when no one did and just like my favorite band says. “ I thank the oceans for giving me you” he was born in a country 90 miles from my country..... the separation between us was the ocean until he came to this country.....