Therapy?¿

I’m 15 and I feel like I might have BDD (body dysmorphic disorder). I’ve done lots of research on it and done all those quizzes online and it always matches up to me. Whenever I read about it I cry because I feel like I have it and that’s scary to think about ya know?

Another thing to add is it wouldn’t be surprising if I did have a mental illness of some sort. My dad has very severe anxiety and my two older sisters have/had bad depression and one has bad anxiety. And if I just think about myself, I don’t really feel like this is how a normal human feels everyday.

Well I’m not gonna self diagnose just because of what I read online and my family’s past, but it seems like it would be nice to have an actual professional opinion on my problem.

Thing is, my parents think I’m like the happiest kid lmao. I don’t know what they would think if I suggested seeing a therapist. I also don’t think we have the money for it. how would I even bring up the conversation?

I feel stuck. What should I do?