So my wife had to visit family out of state, sadly I couldn't go due to my new job. So for it's been lonely and I'm not going to lie I'm clingy but that because I've always been a loner most my life and the fact I got married still baffles me. Well while she's been gone my depression has hit me hit o top of that I got more stress and anxiety from work, oh I forgot to mention we're also in mist of planning to move, and TTC. To be honest I hate this, just being near her calms me we don't have to talk we just can be in the same room and that's enough to relax us. But with all the planning and stress hitting both of us I'm worried about alot of stuff as I should. I wouldn't say it's gotten too bad but I have jokingly mention suicide to my coworker but he knows I'm crazy and cynical so to him it's normal.

So I hope our chances at TTC aren't fucked, planning to move goes well, I find another new job, my current job gets less stressful for the time being, and I hope my depression doesn't hit me as hard.

Thanks for letting me vent.

And no I dont need to see a therapist, but I use to have natural base mood enhancers that worked but negativity affected out TTC so we had to stop taking them.