I can reassure you, you’ve got this mumma

Today, for the first time since my niece was born three months ago, I got to see her and hold her.

Baring in mind I have little to no experience with babies and I’m terrified of them, she looked huge and was so heavy, i felt scared and anxiety ran through my body when she was in my arms fidgeting, thinking she was going to let out a gasp of screaming and crying because maybe she hated me. But my god, it was picture perfect, she stared up at me with these gorgeous big blue eyes, in silence, smiling and just eyes locked into mine. The most beautiful and adoring look I’ve ever had from a baby at me in my life! She had me mesmerised and she was too. So much so that I started crying and had to give her back 😂

At that moment as a 16 week pregnant women who had been considering abortion, not being able to do this, terrified and so depressed. It was gone. Seeing the love that poured out of me to my niece just by the way she looked at me, comforted me in having my baby and knowing one day it’ll be my own doing the exact same thing!