It’s killing me

It’s been 3 weeks since the love of my life left for basic. I’ve been doing amazing. I didn’t cry, I haven’t been depressed, I was all around doing really well. Then I received our first phone call and that’s when the tears happened. I haven’t heard his voice in so long. It was quit a shock. That was the first time I’ve cried since he left. I did pretty good after that. No more crying but then the last letter I received from him he seemed depressed and desperate. I just bursted into tears. I think part of the reason is I’m about to start my period so I’m really emotional but at the same time I really really miss him. I know y’all get a lot of this and I’m not really looking for anything except to tell someone. I can’t tell my friends how broken I am because I don’t want them to see me weak. And I’ve already have talked my best friends ear off on how much I miss my boyfriend but I needed to at least get this off my chest. Thanks for taking the time to read this. I love having such a strong female community!