I recently lost the man I loved and in a terrible way. Things were good for us, I mean yeah we had our issues but for the most part things were good. This was until about 4 days ago when he got into my phone and accused me of cheating because of clearly old messages, me talking to my brother, and telling my friend I love her (that’s what we do). Anyway, things escalated a lot. He said a lot of hurtful things and called me many names and even spit in my face. He threatened to kill me multiple times. He called me over 100 times after I left his house. I got the police involved and he was arrested for domestic abuse and harassment. He has since been released but there’s a no contact order and restraining order in place. This is where things get messy... I am scared for my life because that person that night was not the guy I fell for. So I clearly have no idea what he’s capable of. But I also miss him, we had spent nearly every day together and we had a lot of good times. I miss him so much and I hate that it ended up like this and I feel crazy for feeling like this. Can anyone relate ...?