So recently i was flooded with vivid memories of ongoing sexual assaults that took place from 8-10 years old. I am now 38. These assaults were perpetrated by a boy a few years older than me. The "flashback," was triggered during an intimate moment between my husband and I. I have never experienced such a rush of memory in just a few seconds. Days later now, and we tried being intimate again and i feel sick and grossed out, i shake, and really dont want to be touched. My husband is extremely understanding and realizes that things are different. I felt awful for him. Anyone know what we can do? Obviously none of this is his fault. Or mine. How do we cope? Move through this... together. Our sex life was fabulous before. 😔 i feel broken.