Did I get raped last night

This is a long story so please read and give me some advice. Last night I went to my friends house we’re both 16, she was really wanting to get drunk and kind of so I was i there were kids are age that wanted to get drunk but she said no to them and I felt safe with them cause she wanted to go with different people. I told her I didn’t wanna go multiple times but she said it’d be ok. Fast forward we’re in this guys car who’s 18 and this other guys 22 and we’re in the back seat right away they hand us this bottle I didn’t drink any, we get to there house and go into this bedroom, they brought back a cup full of this alcohol and I drank some of it. My friend however was a little sketchy and didn’t want to drink . After I already drank some they keep like filling the cup up saying drink drink and calling us pussies and I could tell they were just trying to get us drunk. I thought at first they were just challenging us. So I’m drunk and I sit on the edge of the bed telling everybody leave me alone in taking a nap. Then this guy hands my friend ecstasy that pull I told her no don’t do it so she didn’t . These guys were all over her and I’m glad no I’m was trying to do anything to me. Then one of the guys makes out with her the lights go off and I’m still trying to nap. This guy tells me to come here the 20 year old. I was like ok and he starts to try and do stuff and I’m like no I don’t wanna do that and I’m so drunk I can barley even walk. I’m sitting on the floor and suddenly he’s taking off my pants and my under wear and socks he starts massaging me down there and then he put me on top of him and I told him wear a condom and he pretended to look for it. Then he said it was ok and I won’t get pregnant he stuck it on me and started going really fast and hard and it hurt so bad I wanted to cry or something it was sharp, I tried to get up at one point and he pulled my hair back so I was suspended on him basically I could move it slipped out and then I rolled off and said I don’t wanna do this anymore he said she’s ducking tripping and then more times and kept trying to do stuff and then that guy goes to my friend and they’re both on her she tells him no she only wanted one guy. The whole time she kept telling him no and he kept trying to do stuff to her, then fast forward I’m standing on the wall and the other guy comes to me and says all this stuff and starts licking my ear. I told him I didn’t want to do anything I was just chillin and I can’t really remember that much but he takes my pants off and he’s like come on and then he fucks me standing up and all of a sudden I move and put my clothes on and he gets all mad and they both go to the other girl. My clothes are on and then I’m sitting there while they’re doing stuff to her im so drunk and then this guys spills alchohol all over me then he’s like come here and takes me to the bathroom where he turns his shower on and leaves. Then I shower and can’t find the right soap so I just get my hair wet and get the towel I go back to get my clothes on in the room and then she’s like come eat my pussy and I was like wtf in my head but I’m so drunk and we all kind of have a foursome but no one stuck a dick in me . After that they took us home at 7 am. Please help I don’t know if I got raped it’s destroying my mind and I don’t wanna live I feel so gross.