What NOWWW!???

Me and my mom isn’t close anything we really talk about turns into an argument like I’m not close to no one in my family but I want to care but I can’t. I cant even smile at them its like they lost me and I don’t know who I am so every time i go to my friends house i feel happier there and when i come back to my house its like i cant find to be happy what should i do? What could i do?