just want to complain about long distance relationships for a sec. my boyfriend is very affectionate/clingy in person but he is not the type of person to be on his phone especially if he is out and about, which is pretty much all the time. i know this firsthand as when we were physically together he barely checked it, he would even forget it places, leading to him not having it for days at a time and he didnt even care that much. we talk every day but if it were up to me we’d talk 24/7 bc i always have my phone handy, answering him no matter what im doing unless i physically cannot read or respond to his messages (due to being at work or whatever). i understand that is not possible and i try my best not to pressure him to talk to me but it still sucks bc i miss him all the time. also TIME DIFFERENCES. ugh. he is 7 hours ahead which means he goes to bed much earlier than i do, and of course i miss him the most at night when he is fast asleep. dont even get me started on the miscommunications. sometimes our arguments start out small and spiral into something bigger bc neither of us can communicate healthily over text (luckily a long phone call always solves it, but the anger and frustration of arguing over text when a call isnt possible is like no other). lastly im depraved of physical/sexual contact and all of it pretty much sucks real bad.

all this being said i love and appreciate him more than anything. im completely obsessed with him and although i have doubts and anxieties due to the distance i know in my heart that he is too. hell, he stays up til 3 or 4 nearly every night just bc he knows its still early evening over here. today marks officially 3 weeks until im hopping on a flight to spend nearly a month with him and ive genuinely never been so excited for something in my life (it will also be my first time leaving the country😁). then the process starts over unfortunately but we will hopefully never have to be apart long than 3/4 months. all i can do is take it day by day and hope the distance strengthens us rather than doing the opposite.

kudos if you made it through this freaking essay, i had no intentions of writing this much but i guess it feels good to say it all somewhere 😅 if anyone has advice/success stories/anything regarding LDRs do comment them please! i’m so fucking in love with this boy💘💘