Don’t give in!

So this is for all you girls in high school! So I’m gonna start off by saying don’t give in to a boy who isn’t worthy of your time or love.

I was 16 gullible and very innocence in fact my sister would always say your so innocent you would understand (she’s 3yrs younger than me) anyways I had just moved to Arizona. I made a friend in art class who had some other friends who I learned to love.

I meet a boy his name was Trevor. He was tall nerdy and one grade a head of me. I feel for him over the next few weeks to come. We then started dating in October of that year. I turned 17 in January our relationship was very innocent at first.

First off we were both Christians I even had a purity ring. I asked for it from a Christmas present when I was 13. I was head over head for this man. Then one day we started to get handsy and didn’t go all the way but wanted to I felt horrible for the sin I had committed.

We keep this going on for a year we never once had sex that year we wanted to but didn’t. Then a month after my 18th birthday we had sec for the first time I told him I was ready but I really wasn’t. After I felt like I had failed god but for some reason I keep on letting my self let it happen again and again.

He stated to make me feel bad for wanting to go home to Texas for a week to see the rest of my family. He stated yelling at me more and downgraded me. Then one day I had to clean my room before I could see him well that turned into a big fight to where I told him I hated him!

We had a long drawn out week of a brake up all because I told him I hated him one time in the 4 years we were together. I hated my self for giving in to his ways and not loving myself anymore after him. It has taken me 4 years to come out and say that I for give him.

My life didn’t end but I thought it was going to I had just started college so I was in forced from my studies and didn’t pass any of my classes that year. I was so mad at myself and him for doing this. But I left a month later to gather myself.

I left Arizona for a month after my brake up and found that I could be happy with out him even though I still missed him. My heart hurt for months but I soon got over it when I meet my now husband. I saw him from behind a counter trying to surprise my best friend. When I saw him that day I knew he was the one.

A few months pass and we were friends until one day after I was back home. He texted me and said he taught his girlfriend was cheating on him and wanted to see if I could find out for him because I was friends with her well I did find out she wasn’t cheating but wanted to brake up with him. I told him I was sorry and told him the truth she broke up with him 3 days later on his birthday.

We became close after this and started talking. A few months later I was his fiancé and a month after that his wife. We know are on our 4th year together and now have a one year old daughter.

My main message here is don’t settle for your first love don’t take the yelling and screaming. Always know what your worth and never give into something that your not totally ready for. Keep your self and don’t lose your self. Giving into a boy isn’t worth the pain you’ll feel for years after you have.