Ok so wtf why now???

Okkkkk soooo need opinion ladies. Please don’t judge everything I’m experiencing is for the first time so I’m trying here.

My ex boyfriend and I live together for now, he broke up with me 2 weeks ago so it’s been to weeks of me packing my shit and leaving.

I haven’t been able to move out completely because I have no car and the place I’m gonna be now it’s like and hour away of where I am now and plus my job is like 5 minutes away from this place.

So we’ve been staying together broken up for two weeks.

I’m fine about the break up. When someone don’t see your value just move on and too bad for this guy because he realized late but that’s a story for another day

People say never have sex with your exes or be friends with benefit with them and I agree but last night I came home from work super late and he was already sleeping. When I closed the door and locked it I turn around and I see him standing there waiting for me to hug me. The hug was like so tight to my body like so tight weird.

I went to the bathroom did my skincare blah blah when to bed nothing too crazy.

At work I was drinking a little bit Since it was a party.

Anyways he comes to touch me and asked me for speakers and I’m like uhhh yeah here what’s up, then he puts sex music like a playlist that he made on Spotify called sex and fuck and I’m like wtf and then in my head I was like fuck I’m getting horny so fuck if we started kissing and fucking but hey this was not another fuck.

We were together for a year and six month and he has never gone down on me ( one of the reason why I was sooo ok with the breakup ) he never did it don’t know I tried but never but hey last night he did go down on me twice I’m I was so unprepared and wtf and like whaaaat I never came but just the fact that he did it was like mmm why and Also he was asking me to breath with him because every time he comes in “is his love filling me inside” wow what? And it was good but like different but still a wtf just happened it’s like the first time ever he either puts romantic music to play or give me oral sex

So many question I’m so wtf this morning he said he slept amazing gave me a hug and went to work didn’t talk about last night and I’m not going to ask

But what is this? Why now that we’re broken up? I’m feeling weird about my emotions now is he just playing with them? I don’t know what do you Guys think?