So I guess this will be a bit of a rant ig lol. I'm going to be a senior and I've been a bit disappointed and sad lately because I feel ugly. I mean, I think I like myself pretty well to not be too bothered but sometimes the depressing feels just hits when the topic of dating and crushes comes up. Half the time I think I'm hot and half the time I just see trash lol. Recently, I had this crush and I asked him out on a date but didn't specify it as such but it was pretty obvious what I was doing, but he didn't get the message across, I guess. My friend told me that he thought of it as just a "hangout" and I also found out he had a crush on someone else, so I was pretty disappointed but not entirely. We ended up seeing a movie and it was pretty fun. But that was it. A couple weeks later he ended up asking his crush out and now they are dating. I'm happy for him, but at the same time I also felt ugly cause he crush was super pretty, like a solid 10/10. I felt like a 4/10 in comparison lol. All in all I don't really feel that great about myself and I honestly feel like no one is gonna like me, for me. I've never been confessed to before or anything. Honestly, if a guy complimented me I'd probs lose my shit and my self confidence would sky rocket dramatically. Like I wish to experience a hoco or prom proposal but I doubt that would even happen.... rip It also kind of sucks cause pretty much all of my friends have had several people like them romantically but that's never even happened to me before.